Weigh-In, Weigh-Up

So I gained again. But that’s ok! Because…I ate like shit last week. And now I feel fully motivated to STOP DOING THAT. MY BODY DOESN’T LIKE IT. And every time I ate something not so great for me, guess what? The guilt, and the stomach problems made it completely not worth it.

Starting Weight: 176.6 lbs
Last Weigh-in: 166.8 lbs
This Weigh-in: 168.4 lbs
Difference: +2.4 lbs
Total Difference: -8.2 lbs

Yikes. But, at the same time, I needed this kick in the ass. I didn’t really track all week, and then I just went deeper and deeper into the pit of Shit Eating. Now I know, it is NOT worth it. I love love love food, but indulging as much and as often as I did wasn’t great. I feel like most of it was cheap non-delicious indulges. I didn’t really save my extra points for something amazing. And I get extra pounds in exchange. Ugh.

But that’s ok! I’m back on course. I’m tracking. I’ve signed-up up for many Bar classes, and I’m going to kick this week’s butt and get back on course! The only person I’m hurting is myself if I continue in this way. It’s funny because I felt extra anxious all week too, and I’m sure that food had something to do with it. So here we go. Who is with me? We are going to kick this week’s ass! Because weeks totally have butts, duh.

I’m Still Here! (Weigh-In)

I swear I’m still here! It’s just been very very busy in Bookshop Girl Land. Between two jobs, two writing groups, a book club, writing a book, and having a social life, something has to give. The blog isn’t the thing that’s going away, I promise, but I definitely have fallen behind. Watch this space for more updates on books, food, and stuff, later this week. For now just a quick “Hi I swear I weighed-in on Thursday!” recap.

Starting Weight: 176.6 lbs
Last Weigh-in: 167.6 lbs
This Weigh-in: 166.8. lbs
Difference: -.8 lbs
Total Difference: -9.8 lbs

SO CLOSE TO TEN POUNDS. But I’m not celebrating yet. I have eaten SO MUCH SHIT this week. A burrito the size of my head, lots of beer, mac and cheese, egg sausage sandwich…and on and on. It’s been a challenge and busy week (I know it’s only Monday, I’m thinking Thursday up until today = my week, for whatever reason), and I’m just not good at juggling all of these balls AND eating well. But sometimes you need an off week to keep you motivated. And honestly, all of those times I fucked up with my food choices, I felt HORRIBLE AND GUILTY AND DID NOT ENJOY MY FOOD. So, lesson learned. I am in control here, and I need to get back on track. I’ve already decided to make myself my priority this week, so from the post forward, I’m going to do start taking care of myself.

I’ll be back shortly with other updates! Hope you’re all having a good week!

Thursday Weigh-In…on a Saturday

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Yep. I’m an asshole. I gained weight this week and refused to blog about it. Let’s go straight to the numbers, shall we?

Starting Weight: 176.6 lbs
Last Weigh-in: 166.8 lbs
This Weigh-in: 167.6 lbs
Difference: +.8 lbs 
Total Difference: -9 lbs

Sigh. It’s FINE. It’s only .8 lbs. And it’s kind of a ridiculous story. But maybe hearing about my own neuroses over .8lbs will make you all feel better about yourselves so here goes.

I couldn’t make it to my normal Thursday Weight Watchers meeting because my work schedule changed, so I thought to myself “well, I could go to the 5:30 meeting, but my weigh in is at 12:30 normally, and I’ll probably weigh more at 5:30.” So I didn’t go to the meeting because I was feeling annoyed. But I DID end up going in to a WW store and getting weighed, but only because I weighed myself at home and it looked like I was down a pound… not so much. Apparently between my apartment and the store I gained weight. Which is BS, and my scale is just off compared to the WW scales–which is why I went to get weighed in the first place because I want a consistent reflection of my progress, from the same scale. So anyway, I was annoyed, but still actually pretty happy because I’m still in the 160s, and no shit people’s weight fluctuates and it’s going to be FINE. And then the next day I got my period…which explained a) my insanity and b) my gain.

In summary: I gained weight. But not really. I still feeling like I’m making progress, and if nothing else, this little bump is inspiration for me to do a better job of tracking this week. So there you have it. Hopefully my TMI will help you feel better!

Thursday Weigh-In, Travel Edition

This week was a tough one! First I was snowed in for three days, and then when I finally made my great escape, I was on a work trip, surrounded by cake, cookies, and wine at every step. The hotel catered every meal, and it was a challenge, but I survived! In case you’re wondering exactly what I ate while surrounded by hotel food, here’s a snippet of the food posted on my tumblr (carlyeatsfood):

Not too shabby. There was also some wine and some cake. I’ve found that my mindset really has changed, thanks to weight watchers and tracking all of my food. When I find myself facing a challenging food decision I remind myself, “there will always be another piece of cake. Is THIS the piece of cake you want to indulge in, or should you wait for something better?” And generally, I wait. And then when I do find a piece of cake, or whatever, that I do want, I’m ok with it because I’ve said no to like 5 other pieces of cake (ok, I’m not normally surrounded by that much cake, but you get the idea!). Honestly, simply being mindful has made a huge decision.

So here are some tips about eating when traveling for work (not for pleasure! If I was in Hawaii I’m pretty sure I’d throw my WW app out the window!):

1. Pack snacks. A baggy full of nuts, a few protein bars, if possible some cheese or fruit. I failed at this, thanks to Snowpocalypse I didn’t make it out to the store before my flight. I did have some nuts but ended up never eating them.
2. When in doubt, get a salad. There were many carby, meaty, heavy options and I generally just told myself it wasn’t worth it and stuck with salad. Boring, yes, but I wasn’t overwhelmed by the bad for me options if I knew I could stay on track by simply not taking them into consideration.
3. Let yourself indulge. At some point, you’re going to crack if you keep avoiding ALL the sweets. So let yourself have a treat every so often, or if you’re anything like me, you’ll go from eating no cake to eating ALL THE CAKE.
4. Embrace the hotel gym. This was a first for me! Never in my life have I used a hotel fitness center, but after sitting around in meetings all day, I actually wanted to go to the gym. A few miles on the treadmill and I felt less guilty about the wine later. It’s all just a balancing act, really.
5. Drink water. I carried my water bottle from meeting to meeting, and staying hydrated definitely helped keep the munchies at bay.
I know you guys know all of these already, but hey, I’m here to help! Or really, just to brag, and sound like I’m smart, when really, I’m afraid that my weight loss success is going to start getting harder and harder and I’m eventually going to go running into the loving arms of Ben and Jerry. But so far, so good.
Starting Weight: 176.6 lbs
Last Weigh-in: 169.0 lbs
This Weigh-in: 166.8 lbs
Difference: 2.2 lbs 
Total Difference: 9.8

Stagnant (weigh-in)

Whoops. My Thursday weigh-in did occur on Thursday, but you all had to wait. Because I was pissed. I’m a stubborn asshole and was very not happy. I knew it would happen. This is a journey, this is me making healthy lifestyle choices, blah blah blah. This is me not losing any weight this week. I should take it as a win because honestly, I drank too much, ate pad thai and chinese food, but honestly, I tracked all my fucking points and still had some leftover. Plus Bar Method. Plus a long walk on the waterfront. Sigh. But it’s ok. One week at a time. And it’s a good thing because now I’m being extra good this week. I’ll get there. I mean honestly, I already FEEL better/hotter/smaller. So what’s one week of stagnation?

In other stagnant news, I am not going anywhere today:
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photo 1 (2) Yup. It’s snowing like crazy in Portland. Which means hunkering down, watching way too many episodes of The Good Wife, cleaning my apartment, reading (currently: Midwinterblood, just finished The Brief Wondrous Life of Oscar Wao, review to come), and watching the Olympics! I’ve got to admit, I kind of like watching the snowy Olympics in my snowy apartment. But as much as I was dying for some quality Me Time before, I’m honestly not sure I’m making the most of it. Guess how many words of my manuscript I’ve written? Big Fat Zero. Sigh.

I actually did make it out to Bar Method this morning before they cancelled the rest of the day’s classes. I’m glad I did, it felt good to move!

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Now I have a whole lot of nothing to get back to doing! Ok, maybe I’ve just guilted myself into getting some writing done. And since you’ve all been patient and read my whiny post, you get a cute cat picture!

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Starting Weight: 1766.6 lbs
Last Weigh-in: 169.0 lbs
This Weigh-in: 169.0 lbs
Difference: 0 lbs

 

Thursday Weigh-In: Pound by Pound

Hello! Just a quick post to check-in with the whole Weight Watchers losing weight thing I have going on. Despite the fact that all I do it eat, I have somehow managed to make enough healthy choices this week to balance out the unhealthy ones. My biggest challenge is socializing, and planning ahead to avoid major splurges when eating out, but so far I’ve been doing a good job of eating a smoothie for breakfast and/or a salad for lunch if I have plans to go out.

Ok this is all a lie. My BIGGEST challenge is alcohol. Specifically in the form of beer. It’s not that I drink a lot, but dammit, if I want a beer at the end of the day with friends, I want a beer at the end of the day with friends. This basically means that I’ve been a bit hungrier than I should be, and saving my flex points for those beers. But sometimes I skip the beer like a good kid. I just never want to feel like I’m denying myself anything, because I know myself, and eventually I will get really annoyed at the lack of Ben and Jerry’s or Kraft mac and cheese, and then I will over-do it and eat the whole pint/box/6-pack (that’s I lie, I’d pass out after three beers). So I’m allowing myself the little indulgences, and I’m finding that just being mindful of EVERYTHING I eat throughout the day makes those indulgences not weigh me down. Ha.

Also, I started a tumblr with pictures of all the food I’m eating to keep me even more accountable. I have another friend on WW who is doing the same thing, and we’re following each other. It’s a good way to add on the guilt, and a good way to get inspired by what other people are eating. So if the three of you who read this thing want to stalk me even more, and see even more terrible iPhone photos of food, you can find me on tumblr.

And now the numbers! I think it’s funny that my body is shedding one pound at a time. None of this .5 lbs business for me!

Starting Weight: 1766.6 lbs
Last Weigh-in: 170.0
This Weigh-in: 169.0 lbs
Difference: -1 lbs

 

Thursday Weigh-In

I can’t think of anything relating to weight-loss that starts with a T, so I’m sticking with a boring title for this post for now… Thursday Torture? Tummy Be Gone Thursday? Thursday Things But Really Just Weight? Yeah, I give-up.

First of all, I want to thank all of the commentors on my first weight-loss post about how I joined Weight Watchers. You’re support means a lot–oh wait. I have like zero readers. Well…. thanks for the strangers who stopped by and said NOTHING. I appreciate it. No really, I do. This whole posting about my weight thing is kind of embarrassing, really. Especially when I think of the fact that people I know might google me and find this blog somehow. But whatever. I’m being ACCOUNTABLE.

Like this salad I just ate:

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Turkey: 1 point, Laughing Cow Cheese: 1 point, Egg Whites: 1 point, Romaine Lettuce: 0 points, Oil & Vinegar Dressing: 2 points TOTAL POINTS: 5 P+

Win. I was still a bit hungry, and considering that’s a lovely low point lunch, I grabbed a Picky Bar.

smoothcaffeinator_largeI’m pretty sure I heard about these bars from someone at Bar Method, but I could be wrong. Either way, I was housesitting near a fancy grocery store that carries them, so I figured I’d give them a go. And it was really good. And I’m full. So win-win! (5 Points Plus, ala WW calculator.)

So Weight Watchers. I last left you guys being afraid of going, and then I went, and it’s working. So what goes on in Weight Watcher meetings? That’s what you really want to know, right? Well, as someone said at today’s meeting, it’s kind of like AA. At first I thought this was a shameful thing. I mean, alcoholics have a serious problem. Do I have a serious problem? Definitely not in the same way. But that doesn’t mean a support group can’t help. And that’s what we are. The meetings keep you accountable, knowing all week that you’re going to go to a meeting and get weighed, and have a number to be faced with. Well I don’t know about you, but I don’t like disappointing people. So I want that number to be going down every week. It actually has helped me get through the week. I want to feel HAPPY getting off that scale. So I imagine myself happy, and I don’t eat the pint of ice cream, or slice of pizza.

Today we talked about how it’s really a lot of little steps that get you to your goal. And how it’s a marathon not a race, blah blah blah. The thing is, we all know these things. We have the tools. It’s really going every week, and staying on top of it, I think, that’s going to help me be successful. I mean, I’ve gone on wacky diets. I’ve given up before. I don’t want to give up this time. If I lose a pound every week, that will keep me going. If I lose half a pound, that will keep me going. I’m probably NOT going to lose every week. But making this about a healthy lifestyle, and not about a wacky trendy diet, that’s what’s going to make the difference.

I’m probably not going to always go to the meetings–it’s expensive, and time consuming. But it’s working for now, and if it works, it works. Confession: I just googled trying to find this quote from someone in today’s meeting and came up with a bunch of terrible articles on WW, and now I’m a bit spooked. Because SO many people gain it all back. But right now I don’t have to worry about that, and I’m not going to get ahead of myself, dammit. One week at a time. One pound at a time. And it really was one pound this week.

Starting Weight: 1766.6 lbs
Last Weigh-in: 171.0
This Weigh-in: 170 lbs
Difference: -1 lbs